Phones started ringing at 12 and we felt finally we had a fun filled nite… Before we could take a gedi ( round ) on Delhi roads or india gate for that matter , I felt a pain in my abdomen. I asked both of my mates to head home and chill there only. Not that I am a doctor but I stopped at the chemist at 1 o clock in the night to pick up some digestives. We were in full swing by teasing each other and pulling legs on one thing on the other till I told them the pain got severe. They were still in that frame and were laughing on seeing me dancing on the bed. Not lately they realized and got up to take me to the hospital.
We reached the emergency of the hospital to know that everybody was asleep , it took 15 minutes to get every body’s attention from their sleep and 3 nurses came to give me an injection . Not that they look ugly they were talking in tamil perhaps they were also not aware of what medicine to give to stop the pain and they were playing a game to see which medicine gets the nod. Well I thanked god and went home just to realize that I am heading for a bigger hospital the next morning.
1 PM next afternoon it was diagnosed that I have appendicitis and it will get operated. I was shifted to a medium sized room to get trips of medicines. And in no time my whole family started off for the hospital. I was in total senses and we 3 cousins decided to take a sweet room as they were enjoying that hospital room and hospitability till then. Fone calls started in galore . 9 PM was decided as the time of the surgery as then Mom Dad and other were supposed to reach from CHANDIGARH.
Experience was normal with just pain and nothing else till 2 Black bouncer looking attendants came and asked everybody to leave the room. I wondered if they were trying to scare me by some mean so that pain may go off as per some new medication alternative or something. One took out the blanket over me and asked me to open my jeans button. In Shock, i was told that cloths have to be changed and I wasnot supposed to do it myself. Trust me you would not want any guy to touch you , provided if you are straight. On request they let me take out my shirt and Jeans but I wasn’t supposed to wear the said cloths till then. They had this big blade which was meant to remove big beery hair that I have on my body. I was asked to lay and relax while I never can forget that moment when my boxer went off my body in front of 2 guys . I welcomed myself to the hospital. I was looking in to their eyes to see which part of the body they are looking at and if there were actually looking at something whats there reaction….lol..
I felt naked which I was , but so naked even with cloths as I realized that I am clean shaved all over. I was in blue funny dress which was back less. I forgot about the pain by then and it was all about how the operations happen. Youtube add much to the horror as I saw few videos on how appendix is removed . Trust me you should never do that especially before your trial. 9 PM I went passed the crowd as I was taken to the OT on a stretcher. Only thing I knew about OT was that RED light which goes off after the operation.
I was left inside the OT with the instruction that team will be back in a while. After 10 minutes of waiting I saw a nurse with tears in her eyes , I wondered if she jeopardized some operation thing or something and she is leaving. Adding to the horror I learnt that she will be a part of my operation team as well as she was preparing / setting instruments for the surgeon .
Slowly after 15 miutes people with green dresses started coming and started wearing long white gloves , That nurse asked one of the Junior doc I suppose “ inka Intestine nikalna hea kya “ if my intestine has to be removed. I stood in disarray and said atleast “ mere behosh hone se pehle toh yeh mat bolo” don’t say these words till I get anesthesia . i am sure my heart beat then must have shot exponentially. Soon I was given anesthesia and I am not sure if they left any scissors or anything inside me but the moment I gained conscious I asked them to show me what they took out. Not that I remember it clearly but it all looked like a heavy small snake . I was again lying without cloths on my body but It didn’t matter then. I was covered with a sheet and was taken in to other room. Pain was in full swing but I was happy to see every body from the family standing there by my side at 12 AM. I was alive.
Facebook got its new status… Pathetic start of the new year…. ROAN…
Sunday, January 15, 2012
Experiencing Pre new year shunt....
It was a perfect start of the week on 25th at quantum, the best club in Noida especially after a tough month of December at work while in typhoid. 26th I got to meet my best frend after donkey months . The stage was set to have a rocking new year bash as I had options to go to Mumbai, Goa, house parties and the fear of sitting ideal watching sharukh dancing on stupid channel was not there at all.
After getting involved so much in work and craving for time to go out on Sundays or whenever I get free ,I was evolving as a different person and all of a sudden with this break I got my life back. Extending no charm to the moment, Suddenly Bombay Goa ruled out because of bloody schemes of Praful patel of giving expensive Air tickets as if we intend to purchase a stake in the aircraft. It all made us plan for 31st night after hearing everybody else’s plan.
We were 3 Cousins brothers fighting to decide on a place by Braving the chilly winter temperatures and taking it for granted that we will get a place just anywhere. I finished off my work early at3 PM and left for Delhi by greeting every one best wishes for the night. I could see that everybody was jealous of me for leaving early. We started off the evening with a Darjeeling Tea and a home made seesha which Anmol ( my cousin ) claims that he is best in making it – which eventually turned out to be failure until I had my hands on it. Guru ( other cousin ) narrated the stories of SunBurn he went for and the dawn folded without a definite plan. It then became a moment of stress as Blue ginger the place we perhaps were sure of going, refused to take the booking. We didn’t want to be on the roads like 50% of ppl and by suggesting India Gate as a place to celebrate new year ; I was taken as a boring but old brother among all. So I just remained shut. We eventually landed at PBN, a restra nearby the house in rajori garden, just to find out that there is a long que of lost ppl like us. Guru was smart enough to sneak in inside without the reservation and we all used my small business card in the belief that the manager there will respect the designation and would give us a table. It was a funny moment though as manager there looked at it for 5 minutes leaving us in a thought if he was making fun of my card or was actually amazed to see somebody of my caliber spending new years eve. But he did help us by cutting short the waiting time to 45 minutes before we were enjoying our delicious Indian food with a taste of beer. It was minutes before the clock could announce tintin , we reached LAP to see the crowd gathered there. The road was full of luxuries cars and I in our SUV was still thinking of having a round at india gate. You just cant get in to clubs ,all guys and enjoy rite…but my cousins had different thought...
Standing at the parking loobby..... The lights went off ...Sky got filled with polluted lights..... And a hoot of gals galloped...
After getting involved so much in work and craving for time to go out on Sundays or whenever I get free ,I was evolving as a different person and all of a sudden with this break I got my life back. Extending no charm to the moment, Suddenly Bombay Goa ruled out because of bloody schemes of Praful patel of giving expensive Air tickets as if we intend to purchase a stake in the aircraft. It all made us plan for 31st night after hearing everybody else’s plan.
We were 3 Cousins brothers fighting to decide on a place by Braving the chilly winter temperatures and taking it for granted that we will get a place just anywhere. I finished off my work early at3 PM and left for Delhi by greeting every one best wishes for the night. I could see that everybody was jealous of me for leaving early. We started off the evening with a Darjeeling Tea and a home made seesha which Anmol ( my cousin ) claims that he is best in making it – which eventually turned out to be failure until I had my hands on it. Guru ( other cousin ) narrated the stories of SunBurn he went for and the dawn folded without a definite plan. It then became a moment of stress as Blue ginger the place we perhaps were sure of going, refused to take the booking. We didn’t want to be on the roads like 50% of ppl and by suggesting India Gate as a place to celebrate new year ; I was taken as a boring but old brother among all. So I just remained shut. We eventually landed at PBN, a restra nearby the house in rajori garden, just to find out that there is a long que of lost ppl like us. Guru was smart enough to sneak in inside without the reservation and we all used my small business card in the belief that the manager there will respect the designation and would give us a table. It was a funny moment though as manager there looked at it for 5 minutes leaving us in a thought if he was making fun of my card or was actually amazed to see somebody of my caliber spending new years eve. But he did help us by cutting short the waiting time to 45 minutes before we were enjoying our delicious Indian food with a taste of beer. It was minutes before the clock could announce tintin , we reached LAP to see the crowd gathered there. The road was full of luxuries cars and I in our SUV was still thinking of having a round at india gate. You just cant get in to clubs ,all guys and enjoy rite…but my cousins had different thought...
Standing at the parking loobby..... The lights went off ...Sky got filled with polluted lights..... And a hoot of gals galloped...
Sunday, January 30, 2011
" I will try again tomorrow"
Courage does not always roar , Sometimes courage is the quiet voice at the end of the day saying " I will try again tomorrow". This has been my wallpic for a lot of days now.
Everybody asks me on what i am upto in my life and why i keep on changing places and the line of business i am looking at. Well even today i have no answer in words but i stand tall on the learnings i have got from all the steps i have taken so far. Today , i am busy correcting few system failures in an organisation from which i will learn to create new systems, new roles, and new drivers. I aim to be a solution provider for all system failures. System here is a part of the process paradigm which also includes technology , Procurement, Managment, sourcing, Manufacturing and much more. In Short , something which will be truly professional and something which will not be easily accepted in the world where a business is run.
With this courage i am writing this ( Its sunday today ).... and if my success lies in another courage .......some other sunday i will Analise it .
"Dreams are subject to change with the kinds of nights i sleep"
Everybody asks me on what i am upto in my life and why i keep on changing places and the line of business i am looking at. Well even today i have no answer in words but i stand tall on the learnings i have got from all the steps i have taken so far. Today , i am busy correcting few system failures in an organisation from which i will learn to create new systems, new roles, and new drivers. I aim to be a solution provider for all system failures. System here is a part of the process paradigm which also includes technology , Procurement, Managment, sourcing, Manufacturing and much more. In Short , something which will be truly professional and something which will not be easily accepted in the world where a business is run.
With this courage i am writing this ( Its sunday today ).... and if my success lies in another courage .......some other sunday i will Analise it .
"Dreams are subject to change with the kinds of nights i sleep"
Friday, December 24, 2010
have i made it large...The new wave..
i dont dream of a gini but i dream big. I dnot think i can do it but see it . i dont only see people where they are making mistakes but i know their future too.... BUt the irony here is i am too afraid to share this dream of mine with anyone. LIfe has many ups and down, and dreaming it when its on the lower half of sin wave is perhaps a blunder.. but what else you can do when u reach the crest or trough ( which so ever is the lowest ) of that wave.
I have taken some big steps already to step aside on the adjacent lane where there is nothing what all my frends see or where they are running, there is only hope and no experience books on it. where the trend is unlike of others, which leads to success for who so ever walks over, in his or her own way.
Well by saying big steps on my lane is not overreacting on my decision ,but i mean where every decision takes the hell lot of shit out from you. Where there is only you ;fighting with your self...
I am walking to learn running and then to become an entrepreneur. I dont know how much its possible, but i am truely doing things which none of my frends is doing at this time. So what , if they are enjoying after office..what if they are with their gals and making me jealous. so what if they write " i miss india " or " Missing Mom's food back in my country " on their facebook page. ( Opps sorry yes it matters if they write all that crap there - who the hell asked them to go abroad ) but ya they are fighting to be a leader in their run.. to achieve what is written on that experience book which i talked about above.
I differentiate every thing by saying either i see a short term goal or i strive for a long term goal. I have to make it big..Fortunately or unfortunately i have chosen the later. Lets see...
I have taken some big steps already to step aside on the adjacent lane where there is nothing what all my frends see or where they are running, there is only hope and no experience books on it. where the trend is unlike of others, which leads to success for who so ever walks over, in his or her own way.
Well by saying big steps on my lane is not overreacting on my decision ,but i mean where every decision takes the hell lot of shit out from you. Where there is only you ;fighting with your self...
I am walking to learn running and then to become an entrepreneur. I dont know how much its possible, but i am truely doing things which none of my frends is doing at this time. So what , if they are enjoying after office..what if they are with their gals and making me jealous. so what if they write " i miss india " or " Missing Mom's food back in my country " on their facebook page. ( Opps sorry yes it matters if they write all that crap there - who the hell asked them to go abroad ) but ya they are fighting to be a leader in their run.. to achieve what is written on that experience book which i talked about above.
I differentiate every thing by saying either i see a short term goal or i strive for a long term goal. I have to make it big..Fortunately or unfortunately i have chosen the later. Lets see...
Friday, July 23, 2010
learning selling.....
Some love it some run away from it.. who got succeded luv it whu never tried hate it..... SALES...
After setting up my foot in the Chandigarh and setting up new operations of a company or perhaps a new company by holding a hand of experiences people sitting far away , i have learnt that winning every contest is not an easy task.
I never knew what the ration card meant befor taking up this role. Was there a seperate dept for Food? What does mr Sharad pawar do? If you know a lil bit, u will not find a better person to discuss now. My work demanded learning and helping in one of the various loopholes of the food dept but today it is to gain opportunity and run a mile with it. Well today i am so very keen of selling my self to the world , to the buyers.... by me , i mean my efforts, my strength .... cause i have realised its not only what thinking big takes u, nor what a degree can give you, but also the hard work and passion you put in any work, that take you to various mount everests...
well if you r motivated for doing something you will realise that there are big opportunities in the our country today..most of us are not prepared for the consumerism tats setting in this country. we underestimate how many people are going to fly and thats why our airports get jammed. we underestimate the billions of minutes a person will talk thats why networks get congested.
we are not prepared for the force of consumerism that is unfolding....
Imagine what if just at this moment. we click an idea that goes with the unfolding.... you got balls under your bat...( i mean cricket bat and ball ) dont u?
the fact remains, that changing demographic profiles , new technologies, income levels, Fixed deposit intrest rates, and all shit are taking a great paridigm shift in the consumer taste and business ideas... also we win when we win consumer's mindset. but Is that easy??? as the rice we eat, the apparel that our women wear, the dilects we speak change every 100 kms we cross... so how to lead and win....., remians the ques of this hour.....
well i am on this path where i want to rewrite the rules and gain values... lets see how far i reach... i may be rong in thinking big but then its an experience on its own and can max make u bankrupt... what else...
After setting up my foot in the Chandigarh and setting up new operations of a company or perhaps a new company by holding a hand of experiences people sitting far away , i have learnt that winning every contest is not an easy task.
I never knew what the ration card meant befor taking up this role. Was there a seperate dept for Food? What does mr Sharad pawar do? If you know a lil bit, u will not find a better person to discuss now. My work demanded learning and helping in one of the various loopholes of the food dept but today it is to gain opportunity and run a mile with it. Well today i am so very keen of selling my self to the world , to the buyers.... by me , i mean my efforts, my strength .... cause i have realised its not only what thinking big takes u, nor what a degree can give you, but also the hard work and passion you put in any work, that take you to various mount everests...
well if you r motivated for doing something you will realise that there are big opportunities in the our country today..most of us are not prepared for the consumerism tats setting in this country. we underestimate how many people are going to fly and thats why our airports get jammed. we underestimate the billions of minutes a person will talk thats why networks get congested.
we are not prepared for the force of consumerism that is unfolding....
Imagine what if just at this moment. we click an idea that goes with the unfolding.... you got balls under your bat...( i mean cricket bat and ball ) dont u?
the fact remains, that changing demographic profiles , new technologies, income levels, Fixed deposit intrest rates, and all shit are taking a great paridigm shift in the consumer taste and business ideas... also we win when we win consumer's mindset. but Is that easy??? as the rice we eat, the apparel that our women wear, the dilects we speak change every 100 kms we cross... so how to lead and win....., remians the ques of this hour.....
well i am on this path where i want to rewrite the rules and gain values... lets see how far i reach... i may be rong in thinking big but then its an experience on its own and can max make u bankrupt... what else...
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
its a mix emotions
I know i have been a lil hit and miss on posting, but people whu actually are intrested in your life get the info and my update through any communication medium. Its not an excuse just an update.
By contrast i cant go ahead with what i generally write or on my intrests for that matter coz my intrests are memories now and my dreams are changing. Exactly one month ago i left Satyam and landed up here in chandigarh in search of a peace for my future. I wouldnt say it was easy for me even though i was doing some shitty work out thr. Today i feel i just have had the best yrs of my life in Hyd. I dont only miss my frends out thr, rather i miss the simplicity of the people whu live thr, i miss my chepandi mates, i miss my comfort, i miss the sports session, i miss flirting, i miss MBA preparataion, I miss every thing.
My imaginations here are ruined by my limitations, Strangled by competition
, and run by my destiny. Yes my new world is a little strange and mostly its unlike my kind. Even though if i make the thing called FUN realises that my life has been gaurded by a Dog with no teeth , it still gonna back off. See for instance when, (after 696 hours of my stay here), i came out to see this new place, very strangely it was beutifull but dull with no one around me. I turned on to my phone contact list and shed out some per sec paise's cum rupees, luckly every one was busy which led me to make a new friend , my first here in this world: My office boy . Thanks to him i have a company here and i take him along to lake , mall, stores and where else.
well its just the starting but its fun to live this life too. How ??? will jot it for yr next read.
By contrast i cant go ahead with what i generally write or on my intrests for that matter coz my intrests are memories now and my dreams are changing. Exactly one month ago i left Satyam and landed up here in chandigarh in search of a peace for my future. I wouldnt say it was easy for me even though i was doing some shitty work out thr. Today i feel i just have had the best yrs of my life in Hyd. I dont only miss my frends out thr, rather i miss the simplicity of the people whu live thr, i miss my chepandi mates, i miss my comfort, i miss the sports session, i miss flirting, i miss MBA preparataion, I miss every thing.
My imaginations here are ruined by my limitations, Strangled by competition
, and run by my destiny. Yes my new world is a little strange and mostly its unlike my kind. Even though if i make the thing called FUN realises that my life has been gaurded by a Dog with no teeth , it still gonna back off. See for instance when, (after 696 hours of my stay here), i came out to see this new place, very strangely it was beutifull but dull with no one around me. I turned on to my phone contact list and shed out some per sec paise's cum rupees, luckly every one was busy which led me to make a new friend , my first here in this world: My office boy . Thanks to him i have a company here and i take him along to lake , mall, stores and where else.
well its just the starting but its fun to live this life too. How ??? will jot it for yr next read.
Saturday, October 24, 2009
does music allow any EXIT.
"Sometimes, when you have a problem, it can seem like you’re all alone with no-one to turn to. Some people find solace in the bottom of a glass, others turn to music. I can’t afford a bottle of Vodka a night so I am going to turn to the world of Rock". But with ma ancestors completely away from this field and being a simply indian , can i chose this path.....
Today I decide to share my most mundane problems with the rock world in which many have been living from years. After coming to Hyderabad i actually comfirmed myself that head banging is way too small a thing to be a rock star, There are drugs, more drugs, unlimited alcohol , smoke, weed, LSD, Grass and just every thing that scares a person the very first time he takes them. LLLLuckly my dwindling goals in life and my shity dream generator didnt overrule my conscience. Here many may object me by proving that i know nothing about rock but thn they are polietly said SHUT UP coz its my page.
I like all others started my journey by listening to enrique, backstreet stuff in the starting . No doubt they were gooood but its a lil unkool for alll of us here to name ourself their fan. specially when the world of music revolves around meeting people and feeling proud of the collection and music taste one has.....NIrvana was my first Rock album from where i picked up the spirit to learn the guitar. luckily my X girl frend gifted me that just at the rite time. I then went around to people to learn things they are comfortable at but always got demotivated because it was too tough for me to be like them when i had hell lot of other intrests too. Slowly and gradually from the song papa kehte hea to my own compositions today i feel a lil satisfied but only when i have learnt to act blinfolded when the demotivation takes its place.
I will not lie , But i did try to be like many of the other rockstars by started doing things they do and developing their tastes but it was way to scary for a kid like me to cross that barrier. Today i am happy i have played with some great rockstars and a lil disappointed that i cant be one among them.
well why i got hit with this thought is coz when i was unpacking my stuff yest ( i have come back to hyD, and soon would be leaving this place in search of a better career) i just thought It has been fairly quiet on the Rockstar front as of late, and most importantly i will not be keeping track with my guitar and music in future too. This is one of the major barrier for a rockstar, you just cant continue with it. But i wish all of you mosfet lovers may you continue the journey if you have really given it a life.
Today I decide to share my most mundane problems with the rock world in which many have been living from years. After coming to Hyderabad i actually comfirmed myself that head banging is way too small a thing to be a rock star, There are drugs, more drugs, unlimited alcohol , smoke, weed, LSD, Grass and just every thing that scares a person the very first time he takes them. LLLLuckly my dwindling goals in life and my shity dream generator didnt overrule my conscience. Here many may object me by proving that i know nothing about rock but thn they are polietly said SHUT UP coz its my page.
I like all others started my journey by listening to enrique, backstreet stuff in the starting . No doubt they were gooood but its a lil unkool for alll of us here to name ourself their fan. specially when the world of music revolves around meeting people and feeling proud of the collection and music taste one has.....NIrvana was my first Rock album from where i picked up the spirit to learn the guitar. luckily my X girl frend gifted me that just at the rite time. I then went around to people to learn things they are comfortable at but always got demotivated because it was too tough for me to be like them when i had hell lot of other intrests too. Slowly and gradually from the song papa kehte hea to my own compositions today i feel a lil satisfied but only when i have learnt to act blinfolded when the demotivation takes its place.
I will not lie , But i did try to be like many of the other rockstars by started doing things they do and developing their tastes but it was way to scary for a kid like me to cross that barrier. Today i am happy i have played with some great rockstars and a lil disappointed that i cant be one among them.
well why i got hit with this thought is coz when i was unpacking my stuff yest ( i have come back to hyD, and soon would be leaving this place in search of a better career) i just thought It has been fairly quiet on the Rockstar front as of late, and most importantly i will not be keeping track with my guitar and music in future too. This is one of the major barrier for a rockstar, you just cant continue with it. But i wish all of you mosfet lovers may you continue the journey if you have really given it a life.
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